From All My mad Mothers
In the winter of 1962 my mother
gathered up her baby her trembling soul
climbed into the Mini my father had bought
as penance for his bad behaviour drove
until she found herself on Hyde Park Corner
travelling round and round in shrinking circles
not sure how to execute the move outwards
into another lane never having been
properly taught how to make an exit
Judith and Holofernes
Her brush moves across the surface of the deep
to meet with rage in red jets, blood-wet shots
of justice, women with vengeance in their grip.
Teamwork: our two conspirators are caught
as silk assassins, queens of hack and spill
who, spotted at this scene of carnage, seem
so close to ecstasy, they’re beautiful.
Life gives you filth, but you can paint it clean.
Focused on this moment of release,
blessed by the spin of crimson breath
they bask in glory. Judith holds and heaves
and plunges in, making art from death.
This is a better life; she lives in it.
A woman paints herself; flagrant, illicit.
From Dad, Remember You Are Dead
you do not have to be wise you do not have to be kind you do not have to be right you do not have to be good
& that revelation is like a cold shower after
you’ve been stuck in the pot for years boiling
your loveable self to death until you notice
there’s a ladder for climbing out & out you climb
& turn the taps to full the kind of cold shower
that causes you to dance & yell wet & reckless
until you are cleansed & nude & proud
& Neanderthal touched by the twin deities
of Hell & No the kind of shower you can share
with all your sisters of the pot the kind of shower
that sends you roaring into the day where you can say
No More No Way you can say No you can say
No No No Hell No
Sonnet IX 31st March
‘FTSE 100 suffers worst quarter since 1987’ BBC News
‘From Quartz massages to giant floating ice baths, here are the top wellness destinations for 2020’ Canary Wharf Magazine March 2020
This could be hell or heaven. Who knows which?
We roam your concourses, we marvel at
your rooftop gardens and your ghoulish kitsch,
your restaurants and bars, your glitzy tat,
your automatic escalators still
climbing to nowhere. Where are your men in suits,
your quickstep waiters, gyms and spin class thrills,
your oatmilk lattés and your champagne flutes,
your breathless trains, your pits and palaces?
We stroll amid this air of nothing, blow
our cash on faked-up meals on empty terraces
as dust settles on your public pianos
and your temples, vermin do their doings
and rats claim their rightful place among the ruins.